I'm a life-sucker. I don’t know who you are, or how you stumbled upon my page. But I know that you’re here reading my blog, which is good, I guess. My name is Paula and I have recently (17/05/10) moved to Adelaide from Singapore, where I spent most of my teenage years, and from the Philippines, born, raised, and lived there sixteen years of my life.

My name is Paula and it just amazes me how life changes in an instant. Some people who cared, some dreams and hopes you created; they were all here one moment then gone in the blink of an eye. Or, in this case, in about... seventeen days (and counting)? Yep.

My name is Paula and I wanna be in a place somewhere in the world where I might see someone like you. Or someone like one of my dearest friends in SG, Shasha. Or someone like the man that I love, but without a conflicted heart. My name is Paula and someday, someday, I'll be in that place somewhere in the world.

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Hah! Okay, so this is another part of my self-improvement project. And hey, I’m serious! It’s different this time. God gave me another chance ok, and I’m taking baby steps back to game’s pinnacle. I wanna believe that I’m a completely different player than I ever was just a year ago.

So…as part of my project, I’ll be applying Paul Harrington’s book, “The Secret” my mother gave to me two years ago. Ok, yes, I have finally read it.

THE SECRET 101
“What do you want to do?” “What do you want to be?”

• I wanna become a mature person. I want to be smart enough. I know I am and I wanna be better. I wanna learn how to carry on a decent conversation with someone. I wanna be a good conversationalist. I wanna be good at writing. I wanna make sense of everything around me, of everything I do.

• I wanna be just like mom. She’s great. She’s proud of what she has achieved (career, being a mom, a cook, and everything); that kind of success she dreamed of for years. I wanna achieve that kind of success too. I know someday I will.

• I wanna believe in real love. I know that God is soon to arrange a meeting between me and Mr. Right, in His own time. You’ll see. :) 

• I wanna serve my family for the rest of my life. SOON I’ll be returning the kind of life my parents are giving me. They may not know it. I don’t show them a lot, but the gratitude I have for my parents is immeasurable. Deep inside my heart I’m so thankful for my life - I love it. One day I'm gonna make them oh so damn proud of me.

• Music is and forever will be part of my system. I'll be breaking out my shell one day. I wanna see myself, with full of confidence, excitement, inspiration, and happiness, singing and playing on stage with my acoustic guitar. Also, I wanna be part of some dance crew. I love dancing. A girl can dream, right? So, forget the I’m-Not-Good-Enough. I’ll SOON be forever dancing and singing my life to God, my family and loved ones, and to the rest of the world! No joke.

• I wanna buy a house. Big enough to fit my whole big family. Someday, okay.

• I wanna have my own business. I'm gonna have an acoustic bar in Australia or in Paris maybe. Someday!

Well, you know there is no harm in trying, honey. :)

THE SECRET 101 (Excerpts)
“What do you want to do?” “What do you want to be?”

Don’t know? Relax, those are pretty deep questions. But you know, the answer is probably sitting there right under your nose. All you have to do is be conscious of the things that really get you excited. Seriously. It’s more likely than not that what you want to do, and who you’re supposed to be, are all tied up with the stuff that fires you up right now. So …

Take out a notepad and write a list of all the stuff that you’re into, awesome stuff that takes your breath away and really makes you feel all warm and fuzzy.

No pressure; just write down anything that you love to do, or that you really look forward to. It could be school related, or things you do with friends. Maybe it’s stuff you do on your own. Or something you’ve always wanted to do. Whatever you can think of, just write it down.

Go ahead, do it right now.

… …

You didn’t do it, did you? I bet you figured, “Eh, I’ll do it some other time.” Well this is the time. This is your moment. This is your big opportunity to take a chance, to shine.

Truth is, most people just go with the flow; they stick with the flock. Well, that’s up to you. The choice is yours, to be a follower and get what’s given. Or you can step up and take what’s yours.

You’re into that? Okay, great, so write down a list of all the things that thrill you, that make you feel great. Go ahead. What have you got to lose?

To get your creative juices flowing, here are some random suggestions:

Acting
Animals
Art
Blogging
Business
Cars
Computers
Dancing
The environment
Fashion
Gaming
Health
History
Journalism
Motorbikes
Movies
Music
Politics
Science
Singing
Skateboarding
Sports
Surfing
Technology
Volunteering
Writing

If your passion isn’t here, no worries. Just be true to yourself and make out your list. To make it easier, picture yourself doing each one of the things you’re interested in. Imagine with all your senses – the sights, the sounds, the smells, the sensations – feel the buzz, feel the excitement. Which moments feel best?

Now cut the list down to your three absolute favorites. Be decisive; be strong.
Okay, done?

Go you! Because these three things are your purpose, your passion, and your motivation in life. And this is what life is all about.

Lovelots,
Pau