I'm a life-sucker. I don’t know who you are, or how you stumbled upon my page. But I know that you’re here reading my blog, which is good, I guess. My name is Paula and I have recently (17/05/10) moved to Adelaide from Singapore, where I spent most of my teenage years, and from the Philippines, born, raised, and lived there sixteen years of my life.

My name is Paula and it just amazes me how life changes in an instant. Some people who cared, some dreams and hopes you created; they were all here one moment then gone in the blink of an eye. Or, in this case, in about... seventeen days (and counting)? Yep.

My name is Paula and I wanna be in a place somewhere in the world where I might see someone like you. Or someone like one of my dearest friends in SG, Shasha. Or someone like the man that I love, but without a conflicted heart. My name is Paula and someday, someday, I'll be in that place somewhere in the world.

Let's exchange links, drop me a message! :)
Bea Boon Wee Cathie Elora Firah Kris Liz Max Michael Rui Hua

Hey everyone! I have moved back to the original blog link.. .again!Heh! Visit me @ paulaalyssa.blogspot.com See ya! P

uh, whoever you are, I'm pretty sure my thinking is not as fluffy as yours. Gain some intellectual weight, will ya honey? Gracias! ;)

your promises don't mean shit.

And it's August already!? Hmm it's also R's birthday today. Happy birthday!

my dreams gone past by me by long time and i have only 22 years soryy for my english - Anonymous, Romania, 2010-07-25 07:58:39 PDT


It's cool! And I guess that makes the two of us. Hey, we're young and our dreams our gonna come true. They're gonna happen. I know it. Cheers to you, from Australia with love! :)

1. You Belong with Me - Taylor Swift
2. Runaway - The Corrs
3. The Show - Lenka
4. Ironic - Alanis Morisette
5. Head Over Feet - Alanis Morisette
6. Hey Soul Sister - Train
7. Terrified - Katharine McPhee

Uhmm let's pretend that I already own a bar/resto and it's called "Aly's Bar & Resto" :) And then my parents celebrate their 21st Anniversary in my own restaurant! How great is that? :))
More here, CLICK ME:)

Happy Anniversary Toast: Mom and Dad's 21 Years of Marriage :D May you guys have many moooore!

...and it's all I do.

Hahaha Haven't Written A Poetry in A Long Time,
Pau

LOL (Lots of Love),
Pau

1. You love saying random things to annoy some people like your mom, your sister, and Gareth Koh.


2. Every time you watch Glee, you let yourself drown in those gorgeous eyes of Finn Hudson. You watch Glee in the hopes of having a sweet dream about him.


3. You shed a lot of tears while watching Nicholas Sparks’ The Notebook, not because Noah wrote Allie 365 letters, everyday for a year, and she never got them, and not because at the end of the movie, their love let them die together. But because you wish you also had an appealing charm like Rachel McAdams. Like really. 


4. You rifle through the kitchen drawers saying "Where are the farrrking scissors?!!" and you are deadly serious.


5. You don't want those muffin tops and you want to get rid of your love handles so bad. But you're so dumb that you did not realize that the apple juice you have been drinking like a fish has a lot of sugar in it. How about the amount of sugar and full cream milk you add to your everyday two cups of coffee? Yet you're not even a water person. Good lord.


6. You read the The Secret's Law of Attraction over and over again. But you always fail so miserably to apply it to your life. Or maybe you're not even trying!


7. You sometimes feel jittery and you think it’s because you had too much coffee. You’re confuse because other people have been drinking at least four cups of coffee a day. Your mom is trying to restrict you to only a cup and patiently says "Don’t compare yourself to others; everybody is different." Ah, you then feel so guilty, yet you drink your another cup of coffee in the evening.


8. You're outdated. Even the songs in your iTunes are outdated.
   
   


9. You're obsessed with foam on your drinks. You always want foam on your coffee. You want foam on your milo. You want foam on your hot chocolate. And since you do not have one of those espresso-makers with the steamer thing on the side, you discover frothing your milk with an egg beater. Then you think you're a genius.


10. You miss having the only thing you ever order at Starbucks: Green Tea Latte + Oreo cheesecake.


11. You actually relate to Peyton Sawyer's "People are going to disappoint you, I get that, I kind of expect that but, what happens if one day you wake-up and realize you are the disappointment?"


12. You play loud music in the bathroom so you can poop to your full potential. Joke. You just love listening to music and singing to it while taking a hot hoooot shower.  


13. You have been playing guitar for four freaking years and you still don't know bar chords/power chords nor do you know how to read those damn tabs.


14. You find yourself singing to a pile of dirty plates: "Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah! Roma-Roma-ma-ah! Ga-ga-ooh-la-la! Want your bad romance." Or sometimes, “Men men men men manly men whoo ooh hoo ohh oohh... hoo ohh hoo ohoh oo..” 


15. You are having multiple dreams about that someone special of yours you haven’t seen in four damn months… and counting. You thought maybe dreams are just dreams but still wonder why. And then you come up with the following possible conclusions:

• You left, for god’s sake, he has found a replacement of you!
• You miss him and you still want him that it hurts and stings so bad. Cuts so bad. Burns so bad. Right in the balls.
• Who do you think you are? You know deep inside there’s a place in his heart you can never occupy. Wake up!

 P

I have observed that a lot of people (esp those who use British English words) spell "definitely" as "definately". I don't really know why but it's just completely wrong. I promise you the correct spelling is definitely, with an "i" and not "a" :)

Not definately. 

Not definatly. 

Not definantly. 

Not definetly. 

Not definently. 

And certainly not defiantly. 

I promise! :) http://www.d-e-f-i-n-i-t-e-l-y.com/

And speaking of men...

Not really a fan of politics but after hearing the news earlier this week, I must say I find one thing rather interesting – that Australia’s first female Prime Minister Julia Gillard has confirmed she is an atheist. She’s not their first atheist, by the way. But then her convictions are in complete contrast with those of former PM Kevin Rudd who is a Christian and opposition leader Tony Abbott who is a Catholic.

I greatly respect other religious views, and correct me if I'm wrong but this is just something that could never happen in my own country, the Philippines. So just imagine my surprise. In Singapore, I believe PM Lee and former PM Lee Kuan Yew follow some Chinese traditional practices. However, I’m not completely sure what religion they actually believe in. I head on over to the forums to find some answers (Yep, that's what I've been doing during this time of unemployment).

Answer 1:  “LKY is christian.. dunno he practise it or not though….”
Answer 2:  “LKY christian, you kidding?”
Answer 3:  “$$$ is their religion.”
Answer 4:  “haha. they worship demselves.”

So meaningful… I can't believe I stayed in Singapore for almost four years and yet didn't know the PM's religion! Or, they don't just admit their disbelief nor talk so openly about their faith. I don't know!

Anyway, Julia Gillard was asked point blank in the TV interview if she believes in God. She replied “No. I don’t believe in God.” I mean, wow. I’m not quite sure what an atheist PM means for me. But I believe it doesn’t affect me or my family in anyway, but just interesting to hear. Not to mention we are only holding a 457 temporary visa and still hoping to be granted PR status in no time and yes, I’ve got my fingers crossed.

Well, at the end of the day, does religion really matter? At the end of the day we all die anyway, so why give a FARK about anything? That was a JOKE! Hmm, somehow I think it doesn’t really matter. One "concerned man" in the forum said.. and I'm just gonna quote this, "I think that a good governing of a country is not about what country leaders' religion is. It is about what he/she can deliver... So PM's religion is quite secondary. PM's passion, wisdom, love, compassion and abilities are more important..."

A friend of mine in SG asked me earlier today, "Are u missing someone here?? ha ha"

I’m not sure about the “ha ha” but yes, there’s someone in SG I’ve been missing. But that someone and I go days without having a meaningful conversation. And though it doesn’t seem like that someone misses me back, I never tried to stop missing that someone because deep inside, I know that I will never succeed.

I remember the first time we talked. That someone asked for my name and I turned straight into a puddle of.. uh never mind. We were sitting on the floor outside the Alley Bar with the rest of the PPC crew jamming and festively drinking Breda with everyone (and also there, I was just about to find out why they like Breda so much). That someone pulled out the guitar and played with heart, not hands. It was as if (as if!) that someone, with a john mayer voice by the way, was singing to me only. To me only. I felt something different for the first time. Once my heart was captured with that someone's mix of charm, intelligence, silliness, sense of humor, and romantic side. We never really labeled our relationship, but it was in some way fleeting, or perhaps some mere physical attraction we both couldn't ignore. There were a lot of things I wanted that someone to know like such a very special person that someone was to me. But I did not know how and though everything must change, life must change, I will never forget that someone.

I indeed miss that someone but life is just so cruel sometimes. We were both aware that fate would soon find us separated. It did and I think of that someone every stupid damn time, everyday, and always.

Lovelots,
Pau

so gudluck in ur life.. wish u all d best - Anonymous, Philippines, 2010-06-12 02:14:34 PDT

Thank you! You're awesome! Let's live long and prosper! ;)

Lovelots,
Pau

Hah! Okay, so this is another part of my self-improvement project. And hey, I’m serious! It’s different this time. God gave me another chance ok, and I’m taking baby steps back to game’s pinnacle. I wanna believe that I’m a completely different player than I ever was just a year ago.

So…as part of my project, I’ll be applying Paul Harrington’s book, “The Secret” my mother gave to me two years ago. Ok, yes, I have finally read it.

THE SECRET 101
“What do you want to do?” “What do you want to be?”

• I wanna become a mature person. I want to be smart enough. I know I am and I wanna be better. I wanna learn how to carry on a decent conversation with someone. I wanna be a good conversationalist. I wanna be good at writing. I wanna make sense of everything around me, of everything I do.

• I wanna be just like mom. She’s great. She’s proud of what she has achieved (career, being a mom, a cook, and everything); that kind of success she dreamed of for years. I wanna achieve that kind of success too. I know someday I will.

• I wanna believe in real love. I know that God is soon to arrange a meeting between me and Mr. Right, in His own time. You’ll see. :) 

• I wanna serve my family for the rest of my life. SOON I’ll be returning the kind of life my parents are giving me. They may not know it. I don’t show them a lot, but the gratitude I have for my parents is immeasurable. Deep inside my heart I’m so thankful for my life - I love it. One day I'm gonna make them oh so damn proud of me.

• Music is and forever will be part of my system. I'll be breaking out my shell one day. I wanna see myself, with full of confidence, excitement, inspiration, and happiness, singing and playing on stage with my acoustic guitar. Also, I wanna be part of some dance crew. I love dancing. A girl can dream, right? So, forget the I’m-Not-Good-Enough. I’ll SOON be forever dancing and singing my life to God, my family and loved ones, and to the rest of the world! No joke.

• I wanna buy a house. Big enough to fit my whole big family. Someday, okay.

• I wanna have my own business. I'm gonna have an acoustic bar in Australia or in Paris maybe. Someday!

Well, you know there is no harm in trying, honey. :)

THE SECRET 101 (Excerpts)
“What do you want to do?” “What do you want to be?”

Don’t know? Relax, those are pretty deep questions. But you know, the answer is probably sitting there right under your nose. All you have to do is be conscious of the things that really get you excited. Seriously. It’s more likely than not that what you want to do, and who you’re supposed to be, are all tied up with the stuff that fires you up right now. So …

Take out a notepad and write a list of all the stuff that you’re into, awesome stuff that takes your breath away and really makes you feel all warm and fuzzy.

No pressure; just write down anything that you love to do, or that you really look forward to. It could be school related, or things you do with friends. Maybe it’s stuff you do on your own. Or something you’ve always wanted to do. Whatever you can think of, just write it down.

Go ahead, do it right now.

… …

You didn’t do it, did you? I bet you figured, “Eh, I’ll do it some other time.” Well this is the time. This is your moment. This is your big opportunity to take a chance, to shine.

Truth is, most people just go with the flow; they stick with the flock. Well, that’s up to you. The choice is yours, to be a follower and get what’s given. Or you can step up and take what’s yours.

You’re into that? Okay, great, so write down a list of all the things that thrill you, that make you feel great. Go ahead. What have you got to lose?

To get your creative juices flowing, here are some random suggestions:

Acting
Animals
Art
Blogging
Business
Cars
Computers
Dancing
The environment
Fashion
Gaming
Health
History
Journalism
Motorbikes
Movies
Music
Politics
Science
Singing
Skateboarding
Sports
Surfing
Technology
Volunteering
Writing

If your passion isn’t here, no worries. Just be true to yourself and make out your list. To make it easier, picture yourself doing each one of the things you’re interested in. Imagine with all your senses – the sights, the sounds, the smells, the sensations – feel the buzz, feel the excitement. Which moments feel best?

Now cut the list down to your three absolute favorites. Be decisive; be strong.
Okay, done?

Go you! Because these three things are your purpose, your passion, and your motivation in life. And this is what life is all about.

Lovelots,
Pau